Dream Vs Karma
" I have a lot of dreams . One of them is living with you . " I heard him gasp . Damn , why should I?! Of the many men have foun...
" I have a lot of dreams . One of them is living with you . "
I heard him gasp . Damn , why should I?! Of the many men have found in 22 years of your life , why do I have to accept that pernyataaan ?
Even life itself is absurd , how could you ' submit ' your dreams just like me . This mock his name , did not go in my mind . It must be something wrong .
My name is Johan . with 173 cm height. 63 kg Weight. Curly hair. Advance javaness face . Nose dived into . Shiny black leather . Fashion , do not ask me, not really !
You . Dea . with 170 cm height. 55 kg weight . Straight hair . Face a little latin . Aquiline nose . Yellow skin . Yes , and you're on campus about fashion trendsetter .
Hey , from the description above , I'm sure everyone will have no difficulty understanding the fascination astonishment to me , is not it? ! If I absurd , then your interest to me is absurd level two , is too absurd to be happening on this earth .
Duh I die , Yuuuung ! ! Pellets can be charged as a handyman at the guys I was hanging out at the campus . I do not want to die with imaging mass beaten as a handyman pellets . Too sad to later become college newspaper headline next month's issue . Damn !
Okay , it might be more obvious if I explain how the problem you now , before you get carried away in the obscurity level gods here . Why did I get stranded on campus this blushing blue . Accounting Department , class of 2005 .
I'm stranded here is the fruit of my father grudge against Sipenmaru 1983 . My father could not escape into the faculties which had stood from 1955 . And just before the SNCA , which I have not had any appetite in the majors for the occupied , just directed by him to the majors .
I do not know anything about this course , immediately said yes when given a description of the salary of a public accountant many times the salary of a part-time teachers with tenure decades . Yes , part-time teachers at that time my father was a profession . I just innocently said yes . Without realizing it I had been used as a tool of revenge . Tch !
Everyone surely knows , most asoy hangout place in Yogyakarta , besides Ambarukmo Plaza is my campus . How not , young people with suit fashionable young sweet nan scattered here . In ten steps you walk in my campus , you can find eleven female sex creature with the above description .
Dea , that's your name . You instantly become a trending topic among our men . Even while still in the orientation . Seniors , friends of the force , even force all Adek nothing lackluster when your name to the topic in any discussion . Except me . Yes , I am .
Why ? ?
Hey, do not think of all sorts about me . Not that I'm not interested in women . Kutubku still normal . I've even been going out during junior high , junior high school yeah , dating the first and last till now .
The reason being ' different ' about you , is ... public accountant salary !
I want to focus on college . I want to graduate summa cum laude with honors , brilliant career , and " accountant " listed as my work ID card . Affluent, safe from debt bondage . Dreams are not redundant is not it? ! For me , the son of a part-time teachers in remote villages in the State MTS Ngawen , Blora . Hometown .
Eh , you're underestimating me with my family in the background ? ! Immediately throw that idea man. I was a strong person , character . Moreover , I am very confident with my brain . Dilute second to none . My IQ is the highest se - Central Java . I even had dinner at the table with Mr. Regent at his official residence , when I won the Olympics in 2003 the Provincial Accounting first . My self confidence is not only 100 % , far more than the man.
Semester VI . Charms on all the men on this campus is not too faded , even more frenzied .
I ? ? Of course , stay focused on public accounting ... Salary !
Tax Accounting class , we are one class . With Mr. Prapto , lecturer super killer who had the misfortune to teach in our classes , class hoodlums .
How not hoodlums class , taught in the classroom we need patience level of a prophet . At the time Mr. Prapto 're better explain about the Value Added Tax , the goons even fun throwing glances and smiles to you .
You uncomfortable . I'm embarrassed . Mr. Prapto wrath !
" The guys here really tacky ! " No wind, no rain . You suddenly bitching at me .
I happened to sit next to you who inevitably have meladenimu .
" Blame your God created you beautiful , " I clarify his destiny .
Dea chuckled , I feel cheated .
" You think I'm beautiful ? " You asked rhetorically as if you do not have a mirror at home .
" Well , at least the guys here refer to you about the definition of beauty . "
" Then why are you not interested in me ? " Eh , why the question as judge as ' abnormal ' .
Patience . Inhale . The temptation is often come from unexpected sources . Beautiful creature can insult - dina with jumawa .
" As long as you know ya . Since coming to this university , love my first and last to date is the Public Accounting Profession . Excuse me , I'm different mecca with the guys here . " Not to be bullied , jumawaku was exposed to all-out ( by accident ) .
" Hihi , you're funny ! " Laughing crisp out of your mouth .
I saw from the corner of my eye . Uh , why else ya hawanya ? !
On VII semester , I took a course Internal Auditing as elective courses before I take a corruption .
Damn pesky thousand , how could you take the same course as me. And again , you become a partner in Field Work in " PT . JAYA ARKA " . Complete package unfortunately .
I liked accounting . No, not because I used to help my mother sell chili in Blora Market . I love it because my mother often told me grocery shopping to be sold in grocery stores in our home . Well , the same , yes .
You ever watch Laskar Pelangi ? My childhood was not much different from earlier times to figure latitude . The difference is he is a marine fish commodity , while I was grocery . Ok , out of the topic , let's get back to the right path .
Accounting is one of the many coincidences in my life , chance to revenge my father , and I just happen in high school majoring in social studies . So there is no trouble for me to learn here .
Different from you . You majored in science in high school . And Accounting is your second choice after medical tests during the college entrance exam . And you pass in the second option . Damn it also turns your fate .
Damn met with misfortune . Yes , God is often magical destiny . Misfortune to be the beginning of our destiny meet . Mbois not really , but that's the reality .
About Accounting . I had a conversation , you stutter . We're a great partner as such , are not we ?
From there we began intertwined closeness . I once kekeuh for college that right, now I got a mammoth ordeal with your presence .
I was not blown away by the beauty . Okay , not entirely at least . But more because of our closeness . Two months is always met , in the same office , with the discussion , even quarreled with . It all turns to leave traces deep in my heart .
The more often laughing together , getting carried away in the atmosphere . Oh , damn ! Quickly once the feelings toward me . Not in my schedule to fall in love . I have to focus on my education and my goal as a reliable accountant . And now my dream is threatened aground at the end of the road as I was about to finish .
" I love you , Jo . "
" . . . "
Aishhh .... you got me dead lice , could not say a word .
I love you . I said quietly in my heart . Could not get out of my mouth .
" I wish I could say the same , " I said softly , staring eyes .
" Why not? How do I feel wrong ? " Thank ye ask not .
You can certainly see from my eyes , I did love you . But I can not be with you .
" There's nothing wrong with feeling , that one is just a state , " I do not believe it will be like some sort of movie dialogue widescreen romance in my life .
" You should not be with me . Your future is still long , bright glow . "
" As for me ? I had to fight to live , I had to seek additional tuition and skripsiku course . You deserve obtain better than me , " the reality of life is very bitter and sometimes we have to let go of what we want . Sick .
Your eyes are swollen , looked at me thanks . Both of them seem pathetic , this can not be compromised ?
I could not look into your eyes . I looked down , shook his head slowly . I knew enough not to continue this feeling .
You son of a renowned heart specialist in Jogja . Family , do not get asked , whatever you ask you will not be hard to get it . Although I know , you choose for simple .
And me, I still have two little sisters that I have lived . Not elegant feel if I have fun at the expense of my father support the family . I'm not so mean to my family .
You went away , taking with feelings .
Seven years later ..
Toyota Fortuner white color of mine drove slowly on Jl . Affandi . I was about to leave for work , CV . Pelita Nusantara . My own CPA firm , with 10 employees who take shelter there .
Yes , after two years to move in a private accounting firm . I can finally start my own business , my own name . And I proved it , snot-nosed kids from all over the Blora named Johan , could be something above the crowd .
I was able to lift my family with me .
My sister Lisa , a UGM Master of Psychology and a Bachelor of Chemical Engineering Tia UI . My father is getting ' retirement ' decent old age , retired from me . And my mother , I 'm sure he was smiling at us in heaven . I regret why he never got to enjoy live well here , he went too fast during childbirth Tia .
And now , here I am . Reputable public accounting profession in Yogyakarta , Merapi View house , not just one car . All of my life feels complete , except for one . Spouses .
I am a successful professional , but I realized it was too late to manage my personal life . Profession is time-consuming and mind . Pekejaan written in my ID card Accountant , but stuffing status on it still has not changed , still ' not married ' . Until I'm stepping on the head 3 , I still do not have anyone to accompany my life .
Tragic ? ? Indeed . Maybe I hit karma . Karma for refusing to love the truth I also feel it .
This is where it happened early karma . My own life , since the events of five years ago ..
I received the invitation letter that afternoon at the office first . D & V initials written with Edwardian Script ITC font on the front cover . Font typical batik happy people .
"Please presence in the celebration of our marriage :
Dea Ananda , S.E , MM & dr.Vicky Notonegoro , Sp.An
On the day : .........
Continuation of the invitation did not enter my mind again . I was shocked .
You send a letter just as I was about to look for you , say it out loud , I love you, too .
I glanced at the red box in the corner of my desk , containing a silver ring bearing the name that I bought when I got my first paycheck .
You know ? You too are my dreams , and the box it is a target that should not tertawar kutepati , happy life with you .
And now it's just a box would be painful for the goods on display is stored . Sick !
P.S. : Say love just in time , my friend . God has guaranteed your life , but the time will never wait .
Candra Aji, August 2011
I heard him gasp . Damn , why should I?! Of the many men have found in 22 years of your life , why do I have to accept that pernyataaan ?
Even life itself is absurd , how could you ' submit ' your dreams just like me . This mock his name , did not go in my mind . It must be something wrong .
***
My name is Johan . with 173 cm height. 63 kg Weight. Curly hair. Advance javaness face . Nose dived into . Shiny black leather . Fashion , do not ask me, not really !
You . Dea . with 170 cm height. 55 kg weight . Straight hair . Face a little latin . Aquiline nose . Yellow skin . Yes , and you're on campus about fashion trendsetter .
Hey , from the description above , I'm sure everyone will have no difficulty understanding the fascination astonishment to me , is not it? ! If I absurd , then your interest to me is absurd level two , is too absurd to be happening on this earth .
Duh I die , Yuuuung ! ! Pellets can be charged as a handyman at the guys I was hanging out at the campus . I do not want to die with imaging mass beaten as a handyman pellets . Too sad to later become college newspaper headline next month's issue . Damn !
***
Okay , it might be more obvious if I explain how the problem you now , before you get carried away in the obscurity level gods here . Why did I get stranded on campus this blushing blue . Accounting Department , class of 2005 .
I'm stranded here is the fruit of my father grudge against Sipenmaru 1983 . My father could not escape into the faculties which had stood from 1955 . And just before the SNCA , which I have not had any appetite in the majors for the occupied , just directed by him to the majors .
I do not know anything about this course , immediately said yes when given a description of the salary of a public accountant many times the salary of a part-time teachers with tenure decades . Yes , part-time teachers at that time my father was a profession . I just innocently said yes . Without realizing it I had been used as a tool of revenge . Tch !
***
Everyone surely knows , most asoy hangout place in Yogyakarta , besides Ambarukmo Plaza is my campus . How not , young people with suit fashionable young sweet nan scattered here . In ten steps you walk in my campus , you can find eleven female sex creature with the above description .
Dea , that's your name . You instantly become a trending topic among our men . Even while still in the orientation . Seniors , friends of the force , even force all Adek nothing lackluster when your name to the topic in any discussion . Except me . Yes , I am .
Why ? ?
Hey, do not think of all sorts about me . Not that I'm not interested in women . Kutubku still normal . I've even been going out during junior high , junior high school yeah , dating the first and last till now .
The reason being ' different ' about you , is ... public accountant salary !
I want to focus on college . I want to graduate summa cum laude with honors , brilliant career , and " accountant " listed as my work ID card . Affluent, safe from debt bondage . Dreams are not redundant is not it? ! For me , the son of a part-time teachers in remote villages in the State MTS Ngawen , Blora . Hometown .
Eh , you're underestimating me with my family in the background ? ! Immediately throw that idea man. I was a strong person , character . Moreover , I am very confident with my brain . Dilute second to none . My IQ is the highest se - Central Java . I even had dinner at the table with Mr. Regent at his official residence , when I won the Olympics in 2003 the Provincial Accounting first . My self confidence is not only 100 % , far more than the man.
***
Semester VI . Charms on all the men on this campus is not too faded , even more frenzied .
I ? ? Of course , stay focused on public accounting ... Salary !
Tax Accounting class , we are one class . With Mr. Prapto , lecturer super killer who had the misfortune to teach in our classes , class hoodlums .
How not hoodlums class , taught in the classroom we need patience level of a prophet . At the time Mr. Prapto 're better explain about the Value Added Tax , the goons even fun throwing glances and smiles to you .
You uncomfortable . I'm embarrassed . Mr. Prapto wrath !
" The guys here really tacky ! " No wind, no rain . You suddenly bitching at me .
I happened to sit next to you who inevitably have meladenimu .
" Blame your God created you beautiful , " I clarify his destiny .
Dea chuckled , I feel cheated .
" You think I'm beautiful ? " You asked rhetorically as if you do not have a mirror at home .
" Well , at least the guys here refer to you about the definition of beauty . "
" Then why are you not interested in me ? " Eh , why the question as judge as ' abnormal ' .
Patience . Inhale . The temptation is often come from unexpected sources . Beautiful creature can insult - dina with jumawa .
" As long as you know ya . Since coming to this university , love my first and last to date is the Public Accounting Profession . Excuse me , I'm different mecca with the guys here . " Not to be bullied , jumawaku was exposed to all-out ( by accident ) .
" Hihi , you're funny ! " Laughing crisp out of your mouth .
I saw from the corner of my eye . Uh , why else ya hawanya ? !
***
On VII semester , I took a course Internal Auditing as elective courses before I take a corruption .
Damn pesky thousand , how could you take the same course as me. And again , you become a partner in Field Work in " PT . JAYA ARKA " . Complete package unfortunately .
I liked accounting . No, not because I used to help my mother sell chili in Blora Market . I love it because my mother often told me grocery shopping to be sold in grocery stores in our home . Well , the same , yes .
You ever watch Laskar Pelangi ? My childhood was not much different from earlier times to figure latitude . The difference is he is a marine fish commodity , while I was grocery . Ok , out of the topic , let's get back to the right path .
Accounting is one of the many coincidences in my life , chance to revenge my father , and I just happen in high school majoring in social studies . So there is no trouble for me to learn here .
Different from you . You majored in science in high school . And Accounting is your second choice after medical tests during the college entrance exam . And you pass in the second option . Damn it also turns your fate .
Damn met with misfortune . Yes , God is often magical destiny . Misfortune to be the beginning of our destiny meet . Mbois not really , but that's the reality .
About Accounting . I had a conversation , you stutter . We're a great partner as such , are not we ?
From there we began intertwined closeness . I once kekeuh for college that right, now I got a mammoth ordeal with your presence .
I was not blown away by the beauty . Okay , not entirely at least . But more because of our closeness . Two months is always met , in the same office , with the discussion , even quarreled with . It all turns to leave traces deep in my heart .
The more often laughing together , getting carried away in the atmosphere . Oh , damn ! Quickly once the feelings toward me . Not in my schedule to fall in love . I have to focus on my education and my goal as a reliable accountant . And now my dream is threatened aground at the end of the road as I was about to finish .
***
" I love you , Jo . "
" . . . "
Aishhh .... you got me dead lice , could not say a word .
I love you . I said quietly in my heart . Could not get out of my mouth .
" I wish I could say the same , " I said softly , staring eyes .
" Why not? How do I feel wrong ? " Thank ye ask not .
You can certainly see from my eyes , I did love you . But I can not be with you .
" There's nothing wrong with feeling , that one is just a state , " I do not believe it will be like some sort of movie dialogue widescreen romance in my life .
" You should not be with me . Your future is still long , bright glow . "
" As for me ? I had to fight to live , I had to seek additional tuition and skripsiku course . You deserve obtain better than me , " the reality of life is very bitter and sometimes we have to let go of what we want . Sick .
Your eyes are swollen , looked at me thanks . Both of them seem pathetic , this can not be compromised ?
I could not look into your eyes . I looked down , shook his head slowly . I knew enough not to continue this feeling .
You son of a renowned heart specialist in Jogja . Family , do not get asked , whatever you ask you will not be hard to get it . Although I know , you choose for simple .
And me, I still have two little sisters that I have lived . Not elegant feel if I have fun at the expense of my father support the family . I'm not so mean to my family .
You went away , taking with feelings .
***
Seven years later ..
Toyota Fortuner white color of mine drove slowly on Jl . Affandi . I was about to leave for work , CV . Pelita Nusantara . My own CPA firm , with 10 employees who take shelter there .
Yes , after two years to move in a private accounting firm . I can finally start my own business , my own name . And I proved it , snot-nosed kids from all over the Blora named Johan , could be something above the crowd .
I was able to lift my family with me .
My sister Lisa , a UGM Master of Psychology and a Bachelor of Chemical Engineering Tia UI . My father is getting ' retirement ' decent old age , retired from me . And my mother , I 'm sure he was smiling at us in heaven . I regret why he never got to enjoy live well here , he went too fast during childbirth Tia .
And now , here I am . Reputable public accounting profession in Yogyakarta , Merapi View house , not just one car . All of my life feels complete , except for one . Spouses .
I am a successful professional , but I realized it was too late to manage my personal life . Profession is time-consuming and mind . Pekejaan written in my ID card Accountant , but stuffing status on it still has not changed , still ' not married ' . Until I'm stepping on the head 3 , I still do not have anyone to accompany my life .
Tragic ? ? Indeed . Maybe I hit karma . Karma for refusing to love the truth I also feel it .
***
This is where it happened early karma . My own life , since the events of five years ago ..
I received the invitation letter that afternoon at the office first . D & V initials written with Edwardian Script ITC font on the front cover . Font typical batik happy people .
"Please presence in the celebration of our marriage :
Dea Ananda , S.E , MM & dr.Vicky Notonegoro , Sp.An
On the day : .........
Continuation of the invitation did not enter my mind again . I was shocked .
You send a letter just as I was about to look for you , say it out loud , I love you, too .
I glanced at the red box in the corner of my desk , containing a silver ring bearing the name that I bought when I got my first paycheck .
You know ? You too are my dreams , and the box it is a target that should not tertawar kutepati , happy life with you .
And now it's just a box would be painful for the goods on display is stored . Sick !
P.S. : Say love just in time , my friend . God has guaranteed your life , but the time will never wait .
Candra Aji, August 2011
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