Miss You
Mailbox . For several days , your handphone tough call. " Sorry Ai , I no longer had a meeting at the office . For several days , I...
Mailbox . For several days , your handphone tough call.
" Sorry Ai , I no longer had a meeting at the office . For several days , I'm busy with this project . Later when empty , I call you . "
Tuuut .... Phone disconnected .
Two years have you lived there , Jakarta . Place all boils down to human kind . Since a job at one of the event organizers say hello . You voted for it than me .
" We'll get through it , " ucapmu earnestly.
" I 'm tired of fighting with distance , Gre . We 've never felt it before , and you also know it's very painful. "
LDR . There's nothing wrong with this type of relationship . Many couples are forced to live for many reasons , especially because of the work . And you are one of them .
" I promise it will not be long . I want to study there , after enough I 'll go out and establish their own business . I'm tired of being an employee , Ai , " promise a time in the future .
I understand the obsession to be an entrepreneur . You are determined not to be an employee , after the incident . Your parents are divorced . Mother left with another man , while your father in the middle of the ocean drilling for oil dollars sent to the family .
" I want to have an intact family , Ai . I want my son to know me , close . I want a vacation with you and your child whenever I want . Without disruption or client leadership . "
On behalf of our family someday , I merelakanmu . Realize our dreams , togetherness without pause .
Your target phone is busy ..
Lately , the sound was more often heard than voice. Stories that have prepared me to share with you , a spirit , a sense of longing , shadow dims yourself suddenly lost the sound of the woman who answered the phone , not you .
" It's been two years you study there , has not it enough ? "
" I still have much to learn here , Ai . My lunch is not enough to start a dream . Maybe another year I could only get out of work . "
I'm bored with your promise . You say the same thing last year , and this year you had not returned .
" When you get married , Rin ? " Question stabbing was heard again from my mother . I just smiled .
" His prayer , yes , Bun . "
I understand the anxiety dost . My age is not young anymore , 26 years . And I need a husband , not a fiance .
I opened your facebook profile . There just is no uploaded new photos in your wall . Like a company gathering . I saw one at the photos , I see you .
Hey , who is this girl ..??
There is a Sundanese woman with shoulder-length hair in next to you , his face spoiled with a knot tightly in your arms .
I immediately closed the photo , your wall , and sign out . I left my laptop which was still burning on the table to go to the sink , washing the face , muffle emotions that come on suddenly .
" We will not trouble , Ai . Technology allows us , you can call me whenever you want , you can call me when I miss , see the condition of social networking , you can BBM me whenever you want . Technology allows us . "
Technology allows us . You're using technology to soften my heart . Yes , technology does make it easier to outsmart heart distance . But technology is also the one which easily crushes my heart . I know you can explain any circumstances that I can see, but not this heart pain already made ?
From : Airinda < airinda@gmail.com >
To : Gredika < gredika@gmail.com >
Subject : Round
I can not continue like this , Gre . Distance is killing me . Every day I wake up , every day anyway menggelayutiku anxiety . I demanded ready with all the surprises from you . surprise you may not intentionally , but very deep wound left . your fb and twitter , they exacerbated my heart . I need something real , that I can touch , I can hug , who can I lean physically there .
I need you home .
[ Send ]
Kriiinnggg ...
Idly , I my phone screen lyrics . Gredika , your name emblazoned on it .
" Yes Gre ? "
"The issue of your email . Did not we often talk about it? "
" It is , and always end with a deadlock , is not it? "
" Come on , Ai . I just got off work , I'm tired . I do not want to argue about this anymore . "
Dead water .
" Mother was asking . Ask us , our relationship . "
" .... "
" .... "
" I'm going to ask you , Ai . But ga now , my journey is still long here . "
"I thought your answer was , always the same . "
No more meaningful conversation, I need some time alone .
Cling ..
My Blackberry rang out when I got to the second Rakat prayer my night , I forgot to turn off his voice . Kemesraanku with God finished already , concentration shattered instantly . For some reason , I immediately think you're the prime suspect , Gre .
Sure enough , Gredika . BBM I do not usually do this late .
G : Ai , I would like to ask your permission
A : Licensed what ?
G : Tomorrow I'm no site survey tasks to remote villages in Bandung
A : Then , why this time should permit ?
G : Because I both surveys , with colleague Cece sedivisiku
I was shocked . Cece Padmadinata , Sundanese girl who concluded his arm tightly . You stories about first glance , when I asked about the intimate photos .
typing .. disappear
typing .. disappear
typing .. send !
A : yes , keep safe and careful ya :)
G : Thank you , Ai
My heart did not accept the truth. But I can not win jealousy . I choose to trust you, my men .
@gredika : @Tjetje I pick 5 hours , after office yes # surveylokasi
Tweet your yellow light like a traffic light in my heart . Alert signal , will all ' surprises ' later .
I could not stop my fingers . I click view conversation .
@gredika : @Tjetje I pick 5 hours , after office yes # surveylokasi - in reply to Tjetje
@Tjetje : @gredika Myspace leaves at how , Gre ? # surveylokasi - in reply to gredika
@gredika preparatory survey to Bandung
Relieved , at least not Gre girl who greeted the first Sunda .
My heart is still not satisfied , my hand hover over the profile Cece , then I click follow .
Damn ! I could not help myself . This distance makes my instinct suudhon higher. I am now officially a possessive boyfriend . I so want to know every detail of everything they do .
Friday night . I spent my evening with the Koran in the mosque next door . I need God more than I need you now . God Most Gracious , Most Merciful . I do not want my love you more than my love to him .
Bismillaahirrahmaanirrahiiim - with the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful .
I clear my mind of you , I want to make out with my creator . All is entrusted , even my heart you will not forever . I do not want to be enslaved by it .
Verse after verse I recite by heart , kucermati every sense and I absorb every story unraveled in it . And I came to the verse of Surat an - Nahl , verse 72 :
" And Allah has made the mate- mate you all of your kind , and then the kids made for you and the grandchildren of the mate- your match . "
I paused , my eyes warmed . Clear grain tears suddenly flowed . I could not help it .
I thought of you again . Gredika , my fiance . And I hope someday you will- is my mate .
I glanced at the floor in the corner of the mosque . Pendulum motion as if talking to me . Your time is running out . Aging your age , you need to hurry , Airinda !
I wiped the tears that burst into . I trim mukena , the Qur'an and sajadahku . Then move to step out of the mosque , heading home to face reality .
Until the house , I kissed and hugged her mother's hand tightly .
" What's the matter , Rin ? "
" Rinda okay , Bun , " I replied with a small smile mother's amazement . My heart is a little calmer now .
I went to the room . Wanted to take the blackberry , and keep in touch with you.
Blinking red light on my blackberry . There are 8 missed calls . Gredika .
Tuutt .. Tuuutt .. I call back nomermu . One time , two times , three times , everything is nil , only mailboxes that sound on the other end .
I panicked . I BBM , SMS also , all unrequited .
Last attempt , I open your twitter timeline to determine the condition of your last .
@gredika : @Tjetje thanks his # FF :) - in reply to Tjetje
view conversation
@gredika : @Tjetje thanks his # FF :) - in reply to Tjetje
@Tjetje : # FF @gredika loyal listeners , a figure that personal attention and full of charisma . always brings warmth in any situation .
I carelessly toss my Blackberry , then slammed himself in bed . My chest suddenly felt tight .
I hujamkan my face into the pillow and screamed her lungs. Not a sound came out , only tears that flooded back . God , I could not.
I need you to go home , Gre .
[ send ]
SMS , BBM , DM , email , facebook message . I send it a line through all the technology that connected me to you . Through them you said as shortening the distance our hearts .
A day later - 08/10/2010
Morning ..
Message I was expecting a reply or phone no . I was getting restless . Not normally you ignore kegundahanku today.
The next night ..
Nothing too hear from you . Kinds of thoughts are menggelayutiku closely . Usually at times like this , you give the news , explaining your situation exactly .
Are you too busy in Bandung ? Ah yes that busy until no time to kaubalas line that sentence ?
@Tjetje : he really romantic # nomention
Glek . Is this not the message berbalasku answer ?
Two days later .. - 09/10/2010
Really sorry , Ai . All day I've been really busy here and there ngurus permission to show the client . Semalem I call you but mailbox . I ran out of regular pulses . I can only reply sms now . The day after tomorrow , I will go home , Ai .
08/10/2010 11:45 PM via sms
Indeed force major network problem in the LDR , SMS - mu pending one day . And that's enough to make me think digress everywhere. Ah , I have sinned already su'udzon you.
Cece then chirp twitter yesterday ?
@breakingnews : Minibus Crash in South Strip , alleged drowsy driver de.tk/nE2tj
My hands moved so just to open the link in the rear .
Drowsiness , Minibus wrecked on the South Line
This morning , residents were surprised by a single accident a minibus . Allegedly sleepy , a minibus with plate number 9123 GH AB hit a road divider on the southbound lanes , the town of Navan ...
Cold sweat of my brow . Mrembes milli something instantly , feels warm in my eyes . AB 9123 GH , I knew the car well plate .
I called your cell phone , mailbox . I do not give up , I call your office , they do not know your situation .
" Why do you , Nda ," asked the mother who caught tears in my eyes .
" Gre .. Mother . Car accident in Navan this morning . "
A few moments later , the call came from the father Gre . He just got word from Noida Traffic Police on the fateful accident . He asked me to Purwokerto , Supomo Hospital .
***
I saw you there . Such as sleeping , wrapped in white down to his chest . Viscous red liquid still not dry on your left forehead . You there , eyes closed , motionless, lifeless .
Innalilahi Wa Innailaihi Roji'un
I seemed to dream , do not believe what I'm seeing now . Still fresh in my memory , SMS - fragment your last .
The day after tomorrow I'm going home , Ai ..
Yeah , you keep your promise . You're home . But not me , but Him , the divine bosom .
Really , I tried sincerely , Gre . I'm very merindumu . But probably more than I merindumu God . And it is here , He is calling you , for the Round .
***
Of the car found a bouquet of white roses , with a sheet of handwritten words there :
" 10/10/2010
Happy 3th Anniversary , Airinda .
Thank you for your attention and your affection three this year .
Sorry frequently make you anxious .
Love you as always ,
Gredika "
Gredika Ananda . You even still present beautiful moment for me at last .
" Love you too , Gre .. " . I like to feel your presence beside me .
" Sorry Ai , I no longer had a meeting at the office . For several days , I'm busy with this project . Later when empty , I call you . "
Tuuut .... Phone disconnected .
***
Two years have you lived there , Jakarta . Place all boils down to human kind . Since a job at one of the event organizers say hello . You voted for it than me .
" We'll get through it , " ucapmu earnestly.
" I 'm tired of fighting with distance , Gre . We 've never felt it before , and you also know it's very painful. "
LDR . There's nothing wrong with this type of relationship . Many couples are forced to live for many reasons , especially because of the work . And you are one of them .
" I promise it will not be long . I want to study there , after enough I 'll go out and establish their own business . I'm tired of being an employee , Ai , " promise a time in the future .
I understand the obsession to be an entrepreneur . You are determined not to be an employee , after the incident . Your parents are divorced . Mother left with another man , while your father in the middle of the ocean drilling for oil dollars sent to the family .
" I want to have an intact family , Ai . I want my son to know me , close . I want a vacation with you and your child whenever I want . Without disruption or client leadership . "
On behalf of our family someday , I merelakanmu . Realize our dreams , togetherness without pause .
***
Your target phone is busy ..
Lately , the sound was more often heard than voice. Stories that have prepared me to share with you , a spirit , a sense of longing , shadow dims yourself suddenly lost the sound of the woman who answered the phone , not you .
" It's been two years you study there , has not it enough ? "
" I still have much to learn here , Ai . My lunch is not enough to start a dream . Maybe another year I could only get out of work . "
I'm bored with your promise . You say the same thing last year , and this year you had not returned .
***
" When you get married , Rin ? " Question stabbing was heard again from my mother . I just smiled .
" His prayer , yes , Bun . "
I understand the anxiety dost . My age is not young anymore , 26 years . And I need a husband , not a fiance .
***
I opened your facebook profile . There just is no uploaded new photos in your wall . Like a company gathering . I saw one at the photos , I see you .
Hey , who is this girl ..??
There is a Sundanese woman with shoulder-length hair in next to you , his face spoiled with a knot tightly in your arms .
I immediately closed the photo , your wall , and sign out . I left my laptop which was still burning on the table to go to the sink , washing the face , muffle emotions that come on suddenly .
" We will not trouble , Ai . Technology allows us , you can call me whenever you want , you can call me when I miss , see the condition of social networking , you can BBM me whenever you want . Technology allows us . "
Technology allows us . You're using technology to soften my heart . Yes , technology does make it easier to outsmart heart distance . But technology is also the one which easily crushes my heart . I know you can explain any circumstances that I can see, but not this heart pain already made ?
***
From : Airinda < airinda@gmail.com >
To : Gredika < gredika@gmail.com >
Subject : Round
I can not continue like this , Gre . Distance is killing me . Every day I wake up , every day anyway menggelayutiku anxiety . I demanded ready with all the surprises from you . surprise you may not intentionally , but very deep wound left . your fb and twitter , they exacerbated my heart . I need something real , that I can touch , I can hug , who can I lean physically there .
I need you home .
[ Send ]
***
Kriiinnggg ...
Idly , I my phone screen lyrics . Gredika , your name emblazoned on it .
" Yes Gre ? "
"The issue of your email . Did not we often talk about it? "
" It is , and always end with a deadlock , is not it? "
" Come on , Ai . I just got off work , I'm tired . I do not want to argue about this anymore . "
Dead water .
" Mother was asking . Ask us , our relationship . "
" .... "
" .... "
" I'm going to ask you , Ai . But ga now , my journey is still long here . "
"I thought your answer was , always the same . "
No more meaningful conversation, I need some time alone .
***
Cling ..
My Blackberry rang out when I got to the second Rakat prayer my night , I forgot to turn off his voice . Kemesraanku with God finished already , concentration shattered instantly . For some reason , I immediately think you're the prime suspect , Gre .
Sure enough , Gredika . BBM I do not usually do this late .
G : Ai , I would like to ask your permission
A : Licensed what ?
G : Tomorrow I'm no site survey tasks to remote villages in Bandung
A : Then , why this time should permit ?
G : Because I both surveys , with colleague Cece sedivisiku
I was shocked . Cece Padmadinata , Sundanese girl who concluded his arm tightly . You stories about first glance , when I asked about the intimate photos .
typing .. disappear
typing .. disappear
typing .. send !
A : yes , keep safe and careful ya :)
G : Thank you , Ai
My heart did not accept the truth. But I can not win jealousy . I choose to trust you, my men .
***
@gredika : @Tjetje I pick 5 hours , after office yes # surveylokasi
Tweet your yellow light like a traffic light in my heart . Alert signal , will all ' surprises ' later .
I could not stop my fingers . I click view conversation .
@gredika : @Tjetje I pick 5 hours , after office yes # surveylokasi - in reply to Tjetje
@Tjetje : @gredika Myspace leaves at how , Gre ? # surveylokasi - in reply to gredika
@gredika preparatory survey to Bandung
Relieved , at least not Gre girl who greeted the first Sunda .
My heart is still not satisfied , my hand hover over the profile Cece , then I click follow .
Damn ! I could not help myself . This distance makes my instinct suudhon higher. I am now officially a possessive boyfriend . I so want to know every detail of everything they do .
***
Friday night . I spent my evening with the Koran in the mosque next door . I need God more than I need you now . God Most Gracious , Most Merciful . I do not want my love you more than my love to him .
Bismillaahirrahmaanirrahiiim - with the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful .
I clear my mind of you , I want to make out with my creator . All is entrusted , even my heart you will not forever . I do not want to be enslaved by it .
Verse after verse I recite by heart , kucermati every sense and I absorb every story unraveled in it . And I came to the verse of Surat an - Nahl , verse 72 :
" And Allah has made the mate- mate you all of your kind , and then the kids made for you and the grandchildren of the mate- your match . "
I paused , my eyes warmed . Clear grain tears suddenly flowed . I could not help it .
I thought of you again . Gredika , my fiance . And I hope someday you will- is my mate .
I glanced at the floor in the corner of the mosque . Pendulum motion as if talking to me . Your time is running out . Aging your age , you need to hurry , Airinda !
I wiped the tears that burst into . I trim mukena , the Qur'an and sajadahku . Then move to step out of the mosque , heading home to face reality .
Until the house , I kissed and hugged her mother's hand tightly .
" What's the matter , Rin ? "
" Rinda okay , Bun , " I replied with a small smile mother's amazement . My heart is a little calmer now .
I went to the room . Wanted to take the blackberry , and keep in touch with you.
Blinking red light on my blackberry . There are 8 missed calls . Gredika .
Tuutt .. Tuuutt .. I call back nomermu . One time , two times , three times , everything is nil , only mailboxes that sound on the other end .
I panicked . I BBM , SMS also , all unrequited .
Last attempt , I open your twitter timeline to determine the condition of your last .
@gredika : @Tjetje thanks his # FF :) - in reply to Tjetje
view conversation
@gredika : @Tjetje thanks his # FF :) - in reply to Tjetje
@Tjetje : # FF @gredika loyal listeners , a figure that personal attention and full of charisma . always brings warmth in any situation .
I carelessly toss my Blackberry , then slammed himself in bed . My chest suddenly felt tight .
I hujamkan my face into the pillow and screamed her lungs. Not a sound came out , only tears that flooded back . God , I could not.
***
I need you to go home , Gre .
[ send ]
SMS , BBM , DM , email , facebook message . I send it a line through all the technology that connected me to you . Through them you said as shortening the distance our hearts .
A day later - 08/10/2010
Morning ..
Message I was expecting a reply or phone no . I was getting restless . Not normally you ignore kegundahanku today.
The next night ..
Nothing too hear from you . Kinds of thoughts are menggelayutiku closely . Usually at times like this , you give the news , explaining your situation exactly .
Are you too busy in Bandung ? Ah yes that busy until no time to kaubalas line that sentence ?
@Tjetje : he really romantic # nomention
Glek . Is this not the message berbalasku answer ?
***
Two days later .. - 09/10/2010
Really sorry , Ai . All day I've been really busy here and there ngurus permission to show the client . Semalem I call you but mailbox . I ran out of regular pulses . I can only reply sms now . The day after tomorrow , I will go home , Ai .
08/10/2010 11:45 PM via sms
Indeed force major network problem in the LDR , SMS - mu pending one day . And that's enough to make me think digress everywhere. Ah , I have sinned already su'udzon you.
Cece then chirp twitter yesterday ?
***
@breakingnews : Minibus Crash in South Strip , alleged drowsy driver de.tk/nE2tj
My hands moved so just to open the link in the rear .
Drowsiness , Minibus wrecked on the South Line
This morning , residents were surprised by a single accident a minibus . Allegedly sleepy , a minibus with plate number 9123 GH AB hit a road divider on the southbound lanes , the town of Navan ...
Cold sweat of my brow . Mrembes milli something instantly , feels warm in my eyes . AB 9123 GH , I knew the car well plate .
I called your cell phone , mailbox . I do not give up , I call your office , they do not know your situation .
" Why do you , Nda ," asked the mother who caught tears in my eyes .
" Gre .. Mother . Car accident in Navan this morning . "
A few moments later , the call came from the father Gre . He just got word from Noida Traffic Police on the fateful accident . He asked me to Purwokerto , Supomo Hospital .
***
I saw you there . Such as sleeping , wrapped in white down to his chest . Viscous red liquid still not dry on your left forehead . You there , eyes closed , motionless, lifeless .
Innalilahi Wa Innailaihi Roji'un
I seemed to dream , do not believe what I'm seeing now . Still fresh in my memory , SMS - fragment your last .
The day after tomorrow I'm going home , Ai ..
Yeah , you keep your promise . You're home . But not me , but Him , the divine bosom .
Really , I tried sincerely , Gre . I'm very merindumu . But probably more than I merindumu God . And it is here , He is calling you , for the Round .
***
Of the car found a bouquet of white roses , with a sheet of handwritten words there :
" 10/10/2010
Happy 3th Anniversary , Airinda .
Thank you for your attention and your affection three this year .
Sorry frequently make you anxious .
Love you as always ,
Gredika "
Gredika Ananda . You even still present beautiful moment for me at last .
" Love you too , Gre .. " . I like to feel your presence beside me .
Candra Aji , September 2011
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